Don't judge my pain if u don't kno the shit that I'm against
Dec 8, 2020 11:01:02 GMT
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Post by 𝒜𝓂𝒶𝓇𝒾 𝒦𝑒𝓃𝓉 💨 on Dec 8, 2020 11:01:02 GMT
Don't judge my pain if you don't know the shit that I'm against. ‼️ -Meek Mill
These last few days have been hell, fighting with the family, my bitch on my neck about some bullshit party she wants us to attend. The only reason she wants me to go is so she can show me off, she stays thinking someone is cheating on her so I guess this is supposed to help her and also let the people know I’m hers.
Sad part about it is I’M NOT HERS, I belong to the streets.
And I’m not talking about “No Hoe Shit. I just consider myself single, but that's besides the point. I probably should step out since I haven’t seen a club, party or even the outside world these last couple of months, everybody and theyre momma been dealing with this covid shit and it’s fucking up all of our lives.
Slowly the world is opening back up but from the looks of it, it seems like these cases are only getting higher and higher in numbers, we’ll probably be back on lockdown sooner than you think, which is why I need to do everything I plan on doing before that shit happens.
Miami, Florida
Amari’s Condo
Amari’s Condo
OFF CAMERA
”What Is Love, Baby don’t hurt me, don’t hurt me, NO MORE.”
The scene opens up inside of Amari’s condo, Amari is shown walking through the front door with his duffle bag in one hand and his cellphone in the other. He notices the loud music playing through his Alexa speakers and he rolls his eyes at the sounds of Haddaway blaring through the speakers. Amari drops the bag onto the floor in front of the door and he walks into the bedroom where the girl he’s currently “sleeping” with is shown dancing to the music.
AMARI KENT: Yo, what the fuck are you lsitening to? Matter of fact why in the hell are you still here? I thought I told you to let yourself out.
The young lady ignores Amari’s screams as she continues dancing to the music.
AMARI KENT: Alexa, turn this shit off.
The music stops and the young lady groans in anger.
Young Lady: What’s your problem man? I was listening to that shit.
AMARI KENT: Yo Ashlee, you high or something? I bet your messing with that shit again aren’t you?
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE Hey now, you can’t get mad at me for doing something you gave me, now that isn’t fair is it?
AMARI KENT: I don’t fuck with that shit anymore, thats my old life.
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE Ummm, you used to be my dealer at one point, but that doesn't matter now, so why did I find a little baggie in your drawer?
Amari looks Ashlee up and down, annoyed by her comments, he brushes past her and heads for the top drawer on the dresser beside his closet. Amari runs his hands through the clothes trying to find the baggie he had hidden in his drawer.
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE See, once a user always a user.
AMARI KENT: Nah I was never a user, I tried that shit a few times and never did it again after. The shit you stole was something I was trying to get rid of, this other chick left it at my house.
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE Oh really, if that was the case then you would have just thrown it away instead of keeping it, you must have had urges.
AMARI KENT: Your trippin fam, I think it's time for you to go.
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE But wait a minute, did you just say another girl was in your bed, ummm excuse me.
AMARI KENT: Yeah that's what I said, I don’t know why you care because it's none of your business, you were just a chick I hit when my main don’t pick up, that’s all.
Ashlee lets out a loud scream, she rushes towards Amari trying to slap him with her hand, but Amari steps to the side causing Ashlee to trip and fall on her face.
AMARI KENT: Yeah you gotta get ya junkie ass out my crib forreal.
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE Make me! I can’t believe I gave my heart to you and this is how you treat me, this is so fucking wrong.
Amari steps back, he places his hand on his head and shakes it. He calmly reaches his hand down trying to help Ashlee up but she slaps his hand away.
ASHLEE WOKINFINKLE Don’t fucking touch me you woman abuser, I should call the fucking police and tell them about how you put your hands on me.
AMARI KENT: And I’ll gladly tell them your high ass tripped, look get ya shit and get the fuck on, don’t call me anymore.
Amari grabs Ashlee by the arm and pulls her up to her feet, he pulls her towards the front door while grabbing her things on the way, he opens the door and pushes her to the outside. Ashlee tries to run for the door but Amari slams it in her face.
AMARI KENT: Man these hoes crazy, this demon dick got them outta they mind.
Amari laughs to himself as he walks back into the bedroom.
Miami, Florida
Amari’s Condo
Amari’s Condo
ON CAMERA
The scene opens up with a shirtless Amari sitting at his Mac computer screen, he just finished looking over contract details that were emailed to him from a particular company he was interested in wrestling for. Amari receives a text from his lawyer “Oking” the contract and Amari signs on the last page.
I don’t even know what to say, in the beginning I felt like a lot of shit wasn’t going my way, at least in my personal life but today, today changes everything. I’ve never been the type to sit back and worry about shit, because I know the type of person I am, I work hard and I’m dedicated to everything I do.
Amari smiles.
I’m doing this video just to give a heads up that a new icon in the making is busting through the doors of Fade 2 Black and making a huge impact. Listen I’m not the type to sit back and talk shit and if I talk shit then I back it up, all of it. I remember growing up and having my first wrestling match in my neighbors backyard, nah we didn’t have everything that a real wrestling ring had but improvised and we made shit work. I also remember spraining my ankle and dislocating my finger. My parents were mad as shit and didn’t understand why I wanted to entertain wrestling, but as a child that’s all I wanted to do before I got into the music.
Amari takes a deep breath.
I’ve always had this dream, this goal that I would compete in the square ring and make a huge name for myself. I want to be talked about amongst the greats like some of these other cats that's making noise and winning championships. I will say one thing, I hope the competition is ready and don’t let my size, my look or my drive to be the best make you doubt me, I’m one of the hardest and real dudes you’ll ever come across in life. I plan on making statements and taking out the best competition so I can rise to the top and hopefully wrap a belt around my waist.
Amonte jumps out of his seat and motions a title going around his waist.
I can already see the competition getting mad,and I’m sure they are bored with the dry competition, it seems like a lot of these dudes lack motivation, hell some of them look like they don’t even want to be here but that'll never be me.
Amari takes a deep breath.
I’ve been training my ass off these past few months and with CoVid happening, it's been easier for me to perfect my craft, I’ve always been known as the icon killer, the silent killa or better yet the masterpiece. When i first signed with my major indy promotion, I was undefeated the few months with a record of 10-0, with the help of my opponents friend during a Cage match, I lost my first battle and that match alone put the fire in me and I told myself after that match I would never lose without putting up a fight. I’m proud of the progress I've made, standing at 5’7” and 169lbs you got people out here trying to intimidate you like you're so pussy because of your height and weight class, but me I’m far from a pussy and I plan on proving that real soon. I remember my first ever I Quit / First Blood match, whichever one came first. It was me and this guy named Big Mac, and nah not like the sandwich but this dude was HUGE. He had to be 6’1” and like 300lbs but I didn’t let that shit stop me from taking the win and being number one contender for a title that I thought I could possibly hold and trust me I put on a damn good match for that one too but back to my match with Big Mac. I’ll admit he dominated me most of the match, but my drive, my speed and my determination to win was what helped me take control of that match and win.
Amari laughs to himself.
The audience couldn’t handle it, and Big Mac was distraught. He couldn’t believe he lost to a “small fry” I think was the name he called me, but this small fry walked in that ring and fucked some shit up, literally. I’m only doing this little clip to give my new company a preview of what’s to come, you want some RAW NEW TALENT then you got it, the high flyer monster is heading your way and anyone who gets in my way, get planned to get knocked the fuck out. And that’s on GOD!
Amari laughs as he ends the video and the scene cuts.
Miami, Florida
Q Lounge
Q Lounge
OFF CAMERA
DR. KABA: I’m here to meet a client of mine, I think he’s already here.
The scene opens up inside of Q Lounge, what normally would be a packed evening, now looks like a desert. With Covid still happening in the world the restaurants are still being cautious about allowing huge groups of people inside their establishments. The scene cuts to Dr. Kaba who is Amari’s personal therapist is shown walking through the lounge and heading towards Amari who is already sipping on his drink. The two air shake hands and both sit down.
AMARI KENT: This is an interesting place to meet, but being in that office kind of makes me uneasy, so this is probably a better setting.
DR. KABA: Yes and with Covid going on it's probably better to do it this way anyway, but I appreciate you being open to the idea and of course everything we discussed is confidential. Now I reread the last email you sent me and you mentioned that you’ve decided to get back into wrestling, can we talk a little about that?
AMARI KENT: I have, I mean it's been on my mind heavy and I’ve been training like crazy just to make sure I’m in top shape when I step back in the ring. I’m signing with this company and I know they’ll throw me in a debut match so I can’t fuck up and lose.
DR. KABA: Makes sense, but are you completely sure this is what you want to do? I remember you saying that you had a lot of built up anger so this may help you release some of that tension but on the other hand we don’t want you to hurt someone.
AMARI KENT: That's the only thing I’m afraid of.
Amari pauses and takes a sip of his drink.
AMARI KENT: You know my past with violence isn’t too pretty, and that’s inside and outside of my home. I did most of my fucking up when I was younger, now I’m at the age where I’m trying to rebuild and make a better man out of myself.
DR. KABA: And how is that going for you?
AMARI KENT: I have my good and bad days, I kicked it with this chick the other night who had a huge cocaine addiction, it took me back to the days when I use to sling coke and do it, the girl was fine and I was trying to fuck so I grabbed her a bag off someone I knew, she was trying to get me to do a line with her all night and part of me wanted to but then I knew it would take me back to that dark place so I hid the shit in my drawer and made it seem like she lost it somewhere around the house.
DR. KABA: Once she left, what did you do with the cocaine?
AMARI KENT: Shit I forgot I had it, this chick Ashlee found the coke in my drawer and was trying to snort that shit, I didn’t let her and when she left I ended up flushing it down the toilet.
DR. KABA: Well that's good, I mean for you to have urges and then overcome them that easy, it means you're moving in the right direction.
AMARI KENT: That's what I said to myself earlier, but it's hard doc, that's why I want to get back in the ring so I can take my mind off the demons that are trying to control my life.
The waiter brings out food that the two ordered along with another drink for Amari.
DR. KABA: Any other problems you want to discuss? How are you handling what we discussed last week, have you made any other attempts to try and figure out what you wanted to do?
AMARI KENT: I haven’t, I try not to give it much thought but it consumes my brain.
DR. KABA: It’s something you're going to have to deal with eventually, you can’t keep hiding from the truth because if you do it will only hurt you later down the line. Everyone deserves happiness even if the happiness you want isn’t the norm of what people are used to.
AMARI KENT: I think they should be used to it now.
DR. KABA: It’ll take time, we’ve come a long way since the old days and progress has been made. But I want you to really sit back and think about how you are going to handle this situation, with you wanting to be back in the public eye, people are going to wonder.
AMARI KENT: Thats what kind of kept me out the spotlight for so long, even with my music I could have been on the charts, making hits, winning awards but I knew at some point I would have to reveal some shit, whether it's shit from my past or what's happening in the future.
DR. KABA: The only thing I can say is keep a positive attitude, you have to understand that people will talk regardless of how you live your life, what your doing with your life and whatever else they can think of or complain about, but what's important is how you maneuver through life, of course everyone makes mistakes but that's why you always have a chance to learn from them also. Only care about the important people in your life and how they feel about you, not the ones that don’t matter.
Amari nods his head agreeing with what Dr. Kaba is saying.
AMARI KENT: I’ll try my best.
DR. KABA: I honestly think this wrestling thing will work out for you, I know you said you’ve done some wrestling in your past but if this is the big leagues then I suggest you put your all into it and go all out. I believe in you Amari and your dreams, I want you to succeed but you have to want yourself to succeed.
AMARI KENT: I know I will, I’m a fighter, you can believe that.
DR. KABA: I can hear it in your tone, and see it in your eyes. Before I go I want to also give you some referrals regarding the other thing that is going on in your life, some of them are people who are kind of dealing with the same thing you are and I think maybe you should attend one of the virtual meetings, you can remain anonymous if if you life, but I think this would be the first step of helping you get to where you need to be.
Dr. Kaba hands Amari a few pamphlets and a piece of paper with some writing on it, Amari quickly grabs the items and slides them in his pants pocket.
AMARI KENT: Thank you, I’ll check them out when I get home.
DR. KABA: Great! Well I should get going, I have a virtual meeting with a client in an hour and it’s going to take me 30 minutes to get back to the office especially now with traffic and all, I’ll expect an email from you soon with some update and a new date to meet, i hope.
AMARI KENT: Yes sir.
DR. KABA: Excellent, then I will go ahead and excuse myself.
Dr. Kaba drops a $100 bill on the table covering his meal and leaving an extra tip for the waiter, Amari takes a couple more bites of his food and finishes off his drink before dropping another $100 bill on the table leaving the waiter a total tip of $46. Amari makes his way towards the entrance, adjusting the mask on his face and walking out of the door.
The scene opens up inside of Q Lounge, what normally would be a packed evening, now looks like a desert. With Covid still happening in the world the restaurants are still being cautious about allowing huge groups of people inside their establishments. The scene cuts to Dr. Kaba who is Amari’s personal therapist is shown walking through the lounge and heading towards Amari who is already sipping on his drink. The two air shake hands and both sit down.
AMARI KENT: This is an interesting place to meet, but being in that office kind of makes me uneasy, so this is probably a better setting.
DR. KABA: Yes and with Covid going on it's probably better to do it this way anyway, but I appreciate you being open to the idea and of course everything we discussed is confidential. Now I reread the last email you sent me and you mentioned that you’ve decided to get back into wrestling, can we talk a little about that?
AMARI KENT: I have, I mean it's been on my mind heavy and I’ve been training like crazy just to make sure I’m in top shape when I step back in the ring. I’m signing with this company and I know they’ll throw me in a debut match so I can’t fuck up and lose.
DR. KABA: Makes sense, but are you completely sure this is what you want to do? I remember you saying that you had a lot of built up anger so this may help you release some of that tension but on the other hand we don’t want you to hurt someone.
AMARI KENT: That's the only thing I’m afraid of.
Amari pauses and takes a sip of his drink.
AMARI KENT: You know my past with violence isn’t too pretty, and that’s inside and outside of my home. I did most of my fucking up when I was younger, now I’m at the age where I’m trying to rebuild and make a better man out of myself.
DR. KABA: And how is that going for you?
AMARI KENT: I have my good and bad days, I kicked it with this chick the other night who had a huge cocaine addiction, it took me back to the days when I use to sling coke and do it, the girl was fine and I was trying to fuck so I grabbed her a bag off someone I knew, she was trying to get me to do a line with her all night and part of me wanted to but then I knew it would take me back to that dark place so I hid the shit in my drawer and made it seem like she lost it somewhere around the house.
DR. KABA: Once she left, what did you do with the cocaine?
AMARI KENT: Shit I forgot I had it, this chick Ashlee found the coke in my drawer and was trying to snort that shit, I didn’t let her and when she left I ended up flushing it down the toilet.
DR. KABA: Well that's good, I mean for you to have urges and then overcome them that easy, it means you're moving in the right direction.
AMARI KENT: That's what I said to myself earlier, but it's hard doc, that's why I want to get back in the ring so I can take my mind off the demons that are trying to control my life.
The waiter brings out food that the two ordered along with another drink for Amari.
DR. KABA: Any other problems you want to discuss? How are you handling what we discussed last week, have you made any other attempts to try and figure out what you wanted to do?
AMARI KENT: I haven’t, I try not to give it much thought but it consumes my brain.
DR. KABA: It’s something you're going to have to deal with eventually, you can’t keep hiding from the truth because if you do it will only hurt you later down the line. Everyone deserves happiness even if the happiness you want isn’t the norm of what people are used to.
AMARI KENT: I think they should be used to it now.
DR. KABA: It’ll take time, we’ve come a long way since the old days and progress has been made. But I want you to really sit back and think about how you are going to handle this situation, with you wanting to be back in the public eye, people are going to wonder.
AMARI KENT: Thats what kind of kept me out the spotlight for so long, even with my music I could have been on the charts, making hits, winning awards but I knew at some point I would have to reveal some shit, whether it's shit from my past or what's happening in the future.
DR. KABA: The only thing I can say is keep a positive attitude, you have to understand that people will talk regardless of how you live your life, what your doing with your life and whatever else they can think of or complain about, but what's important is how you maneuver through life, of course everyone makes mistakes but that's why you always have a chance to learn from them also. Only care about the important people in your life and how they feel about you, not the ones that don’t matter.
Amari nods his head agreeing with what Dr. Kaba is saying.
AMARI KENT: I’ll try my best.
DR. KABA: I honestly think this wrestling thing will work out for you, I know you said you’ve done some wrestling in your past but if this is the big leagues then I suggest you put your all into it and go all out. I believe in you Amari and your dreams, I want you to succeed but you have to want yourself to succeed.
AMARI KENT: I know I will, I’m a fighter, you can believe that.
DR. KABA: I can hear it in your tone, and see it in your eyes. Before I go I want to also give you some referrals regarding the other thing that is going on in your life, some of them are people who are kind of dealing with the same thing you are and I think maybe you should attend one of the virtual meetings, you can remain anonymous if if you life, but I think this would be the first step of helping you get to where you need to be.
Dr. Kaba hands Amari a few pamphlets and a piece of paper with some writing on it, Amari quickly grabs the items and slides them in his pants pocket.
AMARI KENT: Thank you, I’ll check them out when I get home.
DR. KABA: Great! Well I should get going, I have a virtual meeting with a client in an hour and it’s going to take me 30 minutes to get back to the office especially now with traffic and all, I’ll expect an email from you soon with some update and a new date to meet, i hope.
AMARI KENT: Yes sir.
DR. KABA: Excellent, then I will go ahead and excuse myself.
Dr. Kaba drops a $100 bill on the table covering his meal and leaving an extra tip for the waiter, Amari takes a couple more bites of his food and finishes off his drink before dropping another $100 bill on the table leaving the waiter a total tip of $46. Amari makes his way towards the entrance, adjusting the mask on his face and walking out of the door.
“There are always new, grander challenges to confront, and a true winner will embrace each one.” —Mia Hamm